when loneliness is underrated

There are times when I’m content with being single.

  • Having no one to check with concerning decisions I should make/intend making.
  • When accepting an invitation from someone of the opposite sex to hang out guilt-free. Not worrying if it could cause a trail of jealousy on some boo.
  • When indulging in myself, thinking absolutely about myself and my direction only, with no one to account to on my whereabouts.

Then I have those other times where, even while esctatic about my single life,

  • I wish for a 3am call, or an early morning text, or a midday call from someone intimate.
  • I really don’t want to worry about a date for an occasion because I’d already have a default plus one.
  • I’ll go and fall in love with a married person, or a friend in a relationship, and then there will come a moment of disappointment and clarity where I’m reminded I’m single, and I should expect little loyalty in some situations from them and back the hell off.
  • While enjoying my playlist, this song by  Andrew Allen plays and turns me into a total mushy baby

Lost in the day, in a way, it’s same as the one before this,
And I wish I could say that’s it’s all black and white
But it’s grey. It’s the same, it’s the same and I’m so tired
But you are what I’m coming home to

Oh and I’m thinking about a red wine buzz and takin’ it easy,
And I got you in my arms, takin’ a break from crazy

And I’ll say “hey! “
You’ll say “baby, how’s your day? “
I’ll say “crazy”
But it’s all gonna be alright
You’ll kiss my smile
I’ll pull you closer
Spend a while just getting to know ya
But it’s all gonna be alright
Loving you tonight
Loving you tonight

And you are there on my heart at the start of my every morning
And I can’t deny by the end of the day that I’m running on empty
But you make me full, steal my breath
You’re so unpredictable
That’s what I’m coming home to

Oh I’m dreaming about a romance, slow dancing with you
When I got you in arms, then I don’t care what we do

And I’ll say “hey! “
You’ll say “baby, how’s your day? “
I’ll say “crazy”
But it’s all gonna be alright
You’ll kiss my smile
I’ll pull you closer
Spend a while just getting to know ya
But it’s all gonna be alright
Loving you tonight

‘Cause every day is just the in-between
The hours separating you from me
I know you’ll be waiting
I know you’ll be waiting……….

Loving you tonight

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15 thoughts on “when loneliness is underrated

  1. I totally understand this even though I’m in a relationship. One thing I told myself before I started dating again was I wanted to enjoy my ‘singleness’ as much as I could. Once I figured that out, it centered me and made me not settle for less.
    Great post Oluchee.

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  2. I totally feel you here darling….am a huge romantic so most nights am. listening to this I Need You now by Lady Antebellum usually by 2am or 1am, and others usually thinking of some faceless person to cuddle then when I wake I think of how grateful I am for breaking up my terrible relationship and then all I can listen to is Kelly Clarkson Since You ‘ve been gone, or Demi Lovato I Will Survive.
    p. S I am really loving your blog…. And am constantly looking for new blogger boos 😁😁😁
    quirksandoutfits.wordpress.com

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  3. I really like this. But being single can be awesome too, for me it has helped me to rely more on God and trust him rather than trust the crush. But at the same time I was still ranting yesternight about the soon to be boo and how he should come soon so I can act all mushy. For me I’ll enjoy every phase of my life. I really love this post no doubt.
    pribodunke.wordpress.com

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